Aftermath.

Hello, just ignore the fact that I said I'm not going to blog here any more. Anyway, I deleted my previous posts because... I actually have no idea why. I am fickle like this :p Yesterday, E told me that I have an "excessive usage of my brain function" due to the fact that I kept asking him some silly questions like "why Kelantanese call limau as singa" and "why they call that egg & kaya bread as hamlet". Hahahaha..

Due to excessive thinking, sometimes I think I have mild existential crisis. But hopefully I'm wrong. Haha. We did even talked about prayers. I asked him why should we pray? Have you ever think about it? 

Do you pray because you want some rewards from the Almighty or because you want to go to Heaven? Do you pray because you don't want to go to Hell? Do you pray because you were taught to pray since you were young? Do you pray because you are ashamed since your friends, colleagues or house mates pray? Do you pray because you want people to think that you are pious?

Or do you pray because you want to be close to Him & you want His blessings?

Anway, E answered something like how he thought that the reason we pray might be different from time to time.While the last reason might be the ultimate reason for you to pray, I think I agree with E. Kalau harini hati kau bersih & ikhlas lebih sikit, maybe you will pray because you want to be close to Him. Kalau esok malas, you pray because you don't want to go to Hell maybe?  For whatever reasons you did or you didn't do something, and regardless of what kind of person you are, you are bound to rules & regulations. Some things you just have to do it even though you don't feel like doing it, or if you actually hate doing it T.T Because at the end of the day, only Allah is entitle to do the aftermath. 

Not me, not you, and not any other judgemental human being like us.