I feel like I'm emotionally torturing you by letting you know what I felt over these 2 months.
Kadang-kadang aku rasa diri aku seperti ex-gf yang sangat selfish sebab deep down inside aku seakan tak mahu kau move on and wants you to stay reminded about our history. Maybe I should stop.
Someone did asked me before; whether or not I'm willing to get back together again with you. Ikut kata hati, aku mahu. Ikut akal waras aku, I know I should not. Aku ada kehidupan lain sekarang and I'm not willing to jeopardize it semata-mata untuk aku kejar masa lampau.
But since the idea of "us" ended abruptly, kita macam tak mentally prepared kan. But I just want you to know that I was happy being with you back then. If I were to be given another life, I'd still choose to be with you even for a while. I never regret any moment that I spent with you.
Tapi macam yang kau pernah cakap pada aku; "Dah takdir. Hidup kan memang begini".
Ya Tuhan, kenapa berat sangat aku nak lepaskan semuanya? Redha tu memang sungguh payah. Haihhh
u know what, i never really got in any serious relationship. all my life. bcoz i always fall for the wrong guy, and they keep making me sad. and when i'm brokenhearted, it took me months to really heal. and i hate that, i mean, i hate seeing myself being as weak.
ReplyDeleteit's good if you can actually heal and move on
ReplyDeletetapi aku dwell so much in the past kot
and you'd be surprised if aku bagitahu kau benda ni da bertahun2 lamanya sampai our story ni dah tak logik and releven untuk difikir lagi
and yes, i hate seing myself weak and fragile too :(
lepas aku viva n jilid thesis aku, aku blk bp for good.
ReplyDeletefree2 kite jmpe n make up for the lost time k.
raye aritu bz. x smpt.
haaa yalah2
ReplyDeletewe should meet up!
lama gila ah tak jmpe
dah la lost contact lps tepon umah ko kena potong
haha